so fast, imf is comin to an end..and i have been goin to the airport for like i'm workin there.. i get closer to some ppl, also, gettin further away from some.. things change, the feelings of ppl too change as the time past.. live is always so unpredictable at times.. alot of thoughts again...family, friends, studies, st john and relationship... family as usual, shall not say much. friends..many friends made in airport, some friends become closer till i'm begining to fear, while some are ppl whom i wanted to talk to long ago...

has not been goin to st john trainin for many times.. can say i'm busy..also can say i'm lazy.. Just chatted with josiah with some stuff and felt tt things has become bad..in a way where it's not wat the few of us can do.. We're ppl of small rankin while wat we say my not be listened by the ppl on top.. troubles seems to come one by one, and all of us are so busy.. and it's tiring for me, with all the stress tt i'm havin even when it's holidays nw. Politics, biassness, conflict...i start to feel as i go older and into the world of workin with others of diff ages.. nothin i can do..just plan somethin for wat we can do to help a better result, and for wat others cannot do to us.. it's wat others wan to think...maybe it's the cause of diff frequencies....maybe!!!

Relationship..a big ? for me... Lookin at the results tt i have and thinkin of the amount of work load and stress tt i will have, they makes me scare.. i started to question myself to whether i'll be able to take it the next sem.."will i be cryin all the time at hm while studyin?? " i thinki will not have the time to go into tt for now and then.. If it happens??he will be under lots of stress too..cos he will shares my problems.. a person to make me happy, and understands wat i think..cos i will need alot of my own time to study..

i have my aims to go..i noe it's difficult to do. As long as there's a little improvment, it motivates me to carry on. i noe tt maybe i may not be very good in studies as compared to the others, i noe myself.. i noe wat i have done.. yup,..
it's abit stress of me now..but i'm still alright.. get over and done with it, cos tml will be a better day for me to strive!!!! just like Energiser!!hahaha

today is the last day of the whole imf thing and auty.. at last.. it ended early and tt means i got more time to enjoy abit...